Didn't work out, and that's OK. Believe in God

 Nope. Didn't work out. It was an 8 hour exercise of an inversion that I constructed as a relative pronoun that doesn't exist in English. And that's OK!! It might be very useful in the future.  That's how the process goes. And what's more important: I'm one step closer to the truth. The light in this cave is ever-brighter. I can see more and more. There's always a dark cave somewhere. You make paths, weak fires, try tricks, pray (and sometimes the answer comes!! - and sometimes the answer is meant to get you to a better position, like now!), keep working.  The cave gets brighter and brighter. Then you can see a greater reality. Then you can break free!! Going to sleep for a few hours. Totally motivated!! Might have to dance with my Relic tomorrow (which is whenever I wake up!)

Update: will get up. Brush hair. Pack bags. Might not take the time on teeth. Doesn't matter to me. That's my life. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your body and health to do this. That's my Passion. It's soothing to smell like a total cigarette factory, then get cleaned up. Won't always have the time to do such things. 

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