Family drama and cardinal sins

 Just going to make a quick remark. My mother was livid that I would dare assist my dad. Look, my dad is the only one of my family to have ever treated me like a rational human being. Why? My mom and brother both made an identity rooted in victimhood about my dad having left, which I never took personally. She indulged my brother's every vice and still, to this day, covers for the sexual abuse he did to me. Ok, whatever. She made a huge deal about my dad paying for his sin of Lust. I agree. Lust is a terrible sin. Wrath in my childhood family was much worse. Any form of vice on my brother's end was met with an excuse - his dad isn't there. She never sat down my brother to tell him that his lack of father figure is his Passion. She never told him to rise above adversity. She accepted everything from his violence, petty criminality, sexual abuse, pornography use, even his plot to have her be murdered and chronic alcoholism. Me? She attacked me over and over again, tried to undermine my relationships, kicked me down at my weakest point, forced me into the arms of that evil pedophile to which she turned a blind eye for nothing more than greed or ego satisfaction. Why? Because I refused to play into the family myth of victimhood. A lot of this came to a head earlier today when she found out that I'm going to try to get my dad an apartment, which he's refusing to accept. He always treated me very well. On the other hand, I have not seen my mother in 7 years over straight up torture that she made me endure for 5 days - there were many witnesses to this (husband, a now deceased pastor whose cancer she would mock, a few of his friends, my brother's ex-girlfriend - of course she accused me today of having lied about what happened). The point I'm making is this. The Catholic Church is much better at treating broken people than psychology is. We don't need "science" to explain human consciousness. The Fallen nature of Man is a fortiorti true where our broken nature results from our Fall. If she wants to fixate on his Lust - true for a cardinal sin - she should look in the mirror for her wrath. After all, this is the same person who used to show me without asking, gleefully, nude pictures of my dad's erect penis when I could not have been older than 9 years old, and probably much younger - 1st grade even. And what did all of that hate get her? She has no friends. She can't form any relationships. And despite how much she coddled my brother, he takes the wrath that has always been normalized to him back to her. After all, if he can't vent his anger at my dad - that will never happen because I will continue to protect my dad- he's going to dish it back to her. I told her to see a priest for Contrition. She shot back that she has a church in her own home. (I have never seen her pray in my life, and she thinks of saints as good luck charms.) I shot back "Having a church in your own home is Protestantism." That upset her a little. Anyway, I hope my dad gets better. I don't want him sleeping in his truck. He's a total Wild West character of booms and busts in his life. 

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