Need to believe

 Stuck on an issue: aussi, si, tant, tellement, possible intersection with trop. Might risk losing my mind. Of course I'm not joking. Priestly caste must always be militant and willing to sacrifice life to fulfill missions. It probably doesn't help that I was accused of being a hysteric, which is a common charge against mystics. These people are the Devil. There will be a solution. You can levitate if you believe enough. Some can at least. I'm also skeptical that you can just give yourself a stigmata through belief alone. And if that's true, we can learn a lot from mystics. I didn't do this to myself. Must get back to work and go into a deeper state of consciousness. I risk destroying a year of work if I can't retrace my steps. Must solve emphatic Tout and Toute. That's why I'm going off in these side battles. There could be a broader theme that I'm overlooking. Still not done with the Être cases. Mother Mary, keep me sane before I seppuku myself

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